Here I am, on another exam period trying to focus on what I have to learn. Tomorrow I have an exam on American Poetry ( I study American Literature in Turkey) and I wanted to tell you how it is going. Depression and study life can be tough game to handle but when you become a pro-student, you find different methods to cope with it. I will try to elaborate on those methods.
My depression is treatment resistant. I use 1g of antidepressants ( 4 different types) daily. I can’t focus on anything at all. As I study literature I am supposed to read a lot but in certain days only I find it possible to read 2 pages or less. I also work as a freelance translator but as you might guess, I miss deadlines a lot. I have hypersomnia which means I can sleep 24 hours with short breaks. And when my mood is at the lowest point, I don’t leave my room for more than a week.
When things are like this, it is difficult to handle a successful study life. I usually don’t go to lectures and try to learn the subjects from “friends”. As the years pass by, I have found that I can be more productive during the nights. You can also start by finding your productive time and place.
My productive place is library or a silent cafe. So, for my poetry exam I came to a 24/7 library but I’m still having difficulties in focusing. I keep procrastinating.
I don’t know if this is due to depression or not, I find it possible to do something when I’m not supposed to do it and impossible to do when I’m supposed to do it. Right now I’m supposed to study for the exam but instead I’m writing this. Yesterday when I wanted to write for my blog, I wasn’t able to do.
Perhaps, I feel too self-confident and the subject is too easy for me so my mind knows that I don’t need to spend that much time on it. I will probably start learning after I’ve wasted enough time.
How do you guys keep yourself productive and make it work? Are your grades generally okay or do you keep failing classes?